149. Looking to reach 19 BMI
Quiet mind this morning. Respirations 2 per minute. I find the counting useful in keeping focused on the breath but fear I’m becoming attached to low respirations. Karen says I’ll stop breathing completely soon at this rate.
Karen and I tested out the kayak. It looks like the bent mast actually helped it sail a little better. It was a little chilly at first, once out of the Marina the water was pretty good. To have any chance at making it 130 miles will require a bilge pump. I still have a lead acid battery I used to charge my cell phone on the Aids ride that could power a pump.
So far everything looks good. My cancer was a Fuhrman grade 3. Pretty aggressive, so it’s not that surprising it metastasized. The surprise is that it took so long. The last couple of years were stressful and I slacked off on the exercise and diet during that time. I went from 150 lbs to 188 lbs during that time. Also from exercising 2 hours a day and regular 50-100 mile bike rides to barely 45 minutes a week of exercise. I can’t help but wonder how much of a role that played. The timing sure seems more than a coincidence.
I asked Dr. Chow what I could do. His response was “Enjoy life”. I like that. Excellent answer and great advise to anyone. I’m down to 152 lbs now and exercising regularly and Zazen daily. Whatever time is left, I’m enjoying fully.
I see the oncologist today. Not quite sure what to talk about. Hopefully there isn’t much to discuss. I suppose we’ll go over the results of the latest CT scan.